absence of father

it looks like a dream till now. baba nei, i can't believe. but it is true like sunrise & sunset. He was ill & bed-ridden for last 10 months before his death on 26.04.2008, I thought time will pass like this. How fool I was? Time tells all truth. Ki boka boka katha, everybody faces same situation in his life time . It is law of nature. But till I face it I cant believe it. Now I have to face all problems of the house, tussle between my wife & mother & all. I feel very insecured.Specially when i face quarrel between my wife ,I feel very lonely. mane hoi, amar pase jeno keu nei. Ami ekdam eka. Bhisan bhai hoi.last few years, I face lot of problems between us & my parents, till I seem ,If some problem appears, they (Specially my father )cant let me alone. He must help me.The great banyan tree above my head was abolished. My mother was never such great cover above my head . I have greater dependence on my father.My daughter also feels a lot for him. Though he did not go to hospital & my swasur bari to see my daughter during her birth , but later he loved her very much. My daughter too. She said I never can be like my father .
He had many good qualities. But his main fault was to believe his wife(Practically) my mother blindly. His that fault ruined our total relationship in our family. Let me discuss more on a next occasion.